Heels to Tractor Wheels

Saturday, September 23, 2017

Out of Trials Come Blessings

As I sit here typing with a glass of Blackberry Wine from Stonehaus (which I have not had since before I was pregnant with my daughter so I'm savoring each and every delicious sip)  I reminiscence of a time when were just about destitute 1000 miles away from home with 2 toddler boys and a 3 month old baby girl. I remember thinking over and over, "Why didn't the kids and I just stay home!? Why did I let my sense of adventure override my common sense!? Where do we go from here?" I stressed for about a good 20 minutes where I let my worry overtake me and started to despair. Sometimes it's so easy to get lost in worrying over things we forget that the Lord is in control of it all. Honestly when have you ever reached a solution to something worrying over it? I'm not sure about you but I've never had the Ah-ha moment while worrying over something. As humans we are prone to worrying we just need to learn to stop when we recognize we are worrying and hit our knees in prayer. It's not easy to relinquish control of our lives of our problems, sometimes we think we have a monopoly on problems but in reality everyone has their fair share of them from the rich to the middle class to the poor. Just because one has money doesn't mean they don't have problems and just because the poor doesn't have two cents to rub together doesn't mean they are not happy to some extent. I can wholeheartedly say that being poor as brought my family closer together, has strengthened us in ways we could not have imagined and has given us some of our happiest moments and memories. That's not to say we like being poor far from it but we don't wallow in what we don't have, we work hard and are thankful for what we do have. 

As I was sitting in our 98 Toyota Camry worrying my husband took my hand, held it between his calloused palms and my whole body just relaxed and my mind settled. In the midst of our daughters sleepy baby snores and the noise from my boys movie Bling playing on the iPad Air in the backseat we bowed our heads and prayed. We left it all in the Lords hands and were discussing our next steps when my husbands phone rang. It was my Dad on the other end of that line and it turned out him and my Stepmom were in South Bend, Indiana buying a 5th Wheel Camper. After a bit of discussion and Google Map checking it was decided we would head straight to Indiana where my Dad was. From there my Dad and Stepmom would bring the kids and I home to Tennessee and Robert would head back to Massachusetts with the car and await a phone call. 

Anyone live in Massachusetts, New York area? The toll roads kill you money wise! For those that do not and are planning a trip that way make sure to carry at least $100 for tolls. No joke they really put it to you in toll fees! Your best bet is to get one of those Speedy Passes stick to your windshield things in which you put money on it and it allows you to breeze through the toll ways.  The 12 hour trip to meet up with my Dad was all on toll way roads so the tolls took what little money we had left.

It was heartwarming to see my Dad and Stepmom again as it had been at least 4 years since I'd last seen them. They were staying at a K.O.A Campground and ended up renting a cabin for my family so we had a place to stay for the night. It was wonderful to see my Dad and Stepmom with their grandchildren and how my kids were all over their Papa. It was the first time my Parents had met Wyatt & Naomi. They met William when he was a year old not that William remembered but that didn't matter as he took to his Papa & Nanny in no time. He thought Papa had the coolest truck so it made the boys feel like big boys to ride in it with him and of course they were all excited over Papa & Nanny's new 5th wheel Camper. As parents of toddlers we were on high alert so they didn't mar, break or ruin anything in the camper so it was a bit hard to relax. You know the popping up every 5 seconds to see what their into, tell them no don't touch, sit here not there, no playing in the bathroom, quit opening and shutting the front door type of thing. Naomi was under her Papa's spell as my Dad had the touch I had no idea he had. When she cried he took her and she calmed down, she let him hold her and was so content. Robert and I were over here like 'WHAT?!" She didn't go to anyone but Mommy and Daddy and more so Mommy then Daddy. Anyone else she screamed holy terror. It definitely was a sight to behold.

Nanny & Papa meeting and holding their granddaughter for the first time.

Papa & Granddaughter both mesmerized by the fire. 😊 See how calm  & content she is. 

The below is what my daughter looks like when you first place her in someones arms that aren't Mommy's arms.

"Sweet Child O' Mine"
 The below picture is when she realizes that someone isn't Mommy.


So you can imagine our surprise when she was quite content to stay in Papa's arms. 

That day was wonderful and yet heart wrenching knowing in the wee hours of the morning my husband would leave for Massachusetts and for the first time EVER we would not be with him. 

My Parents loaned us $500 in which Robert took $200 after we spent $60 for groceries for him and sent me home with $240 to last the kids and I until he got a job and started receiving a paycheck. He ALWAYS looks out for us and puts his family before himself. He broke the mold when God made him. I've never met a man that can hold a candle to my husband and for that I'm so very blessed God designed him just for me.

This was the last time we saw Daddy before he left for Massachusetts. 
It was an emotional night for all of us Lamberton's as the kids sensed something was up and although we advised them Daddy would be working in another state without us for quite awhile, meaning he would not be coming home with us I don't think they quite understood on an intellectual level but did  on an emotional level. After much hugs and kisses the boys were tucked into their cabin bunkbeds and we laid down with Naomi between us and slept fitfully. 2am came all too soon and without breaking down I helped him pack the car and take out what the kids and I would need, we held each other as tight as we possibly could without crushing each other and not wanting to EVER let go but trusting in the Lord to bring us together again. I sent him off with a kiss he'd remember, closed the cabin door,crawled back into bed with my daughter and silently cried myself back to sleep. 

Now that I'm emotional all over again I'll bid you all adieu and go blow my nose and crawl into bed. Stay tuned for there is more to come...sooner than you would expect.😄

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